Finally going to do something with this

I've decided it is finally time to start doing something with this blog. It has been sitting here doing nothing for the better part of two years so I think it is time.

I've found that I need a place to write about an ongoing struggle in my life: My weight! Before getting pregnant with twins I had lost a significant amount of weight following my third pregnancy, was working out regularly, and loved how I looked and felt. My doctor insisted that I quit working out completely for the duration of the twin pregnancy. Given my history I was happy to oblige. I gained 75ish pounds while pregnant and successfully delivered full term, healthy, twin girls.

Since their birth my body has fallen apart. I think part of it was due to the stress the twin pregnancy put on my body and part has been from the craziness that is life with four kids. I've had a lot more random sinus infections and strep throat occurances but also recurrences of erythem nodesem and costachondritists (tietze syndrome) and developed anemia to boot. I've lost 45 lbs. of the weight but can't seem to get further. In fact in the last 3 months I've started gaining again and really don't know why. Nothing in my diet has really changed.

For the last two and a half years I've used my health, my busyness, my kids, my work as the reasons I can't focus on my losing weight. It seems I'll lose about five pounds and then it stops. About three months ago I saw a new low - which put me at a total loss of 6 lbs for the year. Currently I'm up 10 from that low! I dont' like the numbers I'm seeing on the scale and know something has to change.

I've used Weight Watchers in the past with much success. I tried it about a year or so ago. No luck this time. It took way to much time, effort and mental energy. I find when I do WW I am obessed with when I can eat, what I can eat and every thought is about food. I don't have the time or mental energy to be so food focused now. I've decided I just need to eat smaller portions and find some way to add some light exercise. The smaller portions are easily doable the excersize is much harder.

I've decided to take the Fly Lady approach and start with baby steps. My first step is using this blog as a place to be real about my weight loss journey. A place where I can admit to the good, the bad and the ugly.

If you are fighting this battle too please join me if figuring out a way to beat this problem once and for all.

Jenn